HaS FatE rEALLy ArriVED?

sooo... thought I would do a timeline of my online dating journey...

26 April- registered as a member, started talking more in depth with 2 asian guys pretty much daily, some just hi and byes... browsing daily for interesting matches...

10 May- suddenly was talking as per usual with one of them and then at like 2230, he was like, so how about we try chatting on the phone, so I was like sure, when?? expecting like on the weekend or something, not immediately, but that was what happened... I was sooo nervous, my palms were sweating, cold, my heart was pounding like crazy, I was pretty much freaking out alittle bit actually... so we talked for abit, first impression to be honest was ok, his English is not perfect... voice is ok... accent is quite strong but not too bad... and after we hung up, I truly could not sleep the entire night, combination of adrenaline, nerves, replaying the whole conversation over and over... it was crazy... and then we started talking nightly, getting to know each other better, and I thought he was a really nice and genuine person... and he seems to really care about my wellbeing, and texts me throughout the day as well... and asking for more pics... he actually believed that my profile picture was photoshopped, I was alittle upset about that... 

13 May... fast forward till today... still talking nightly, texting each other throughout the day, and he seemed to really like me, but me being me, with my low self esteem and confidence, kept worrying constantly about what will happen once we actually see each other face to face, and he finds out all the stuff about me... what will his reaction be and what happens if this did not work out in the end... oh and did I mention that we both decided to delete our okcupid accounts yesterday... and I also offered to continue as friends with the other asian guy I was talking to, I hope the gamble of giving him my number does not turn around and bite me in the ass... anyway... so have not been sleeping well for the last few nights since we started chatting on the phone... and of course, no mood whatsoever to do my assignment still... yikes... time is really ticking... just wish that I did not start this stupid idea of doing the masters degree in the first place... cos really, to be honest, my priority atm is to work on my social life... but it's a little too late now... so just have to persevere and hopefully get it done and pass the module this semester... 

so, who knows about the above so far... only pongie, huimin, fran and jo... dunno if I should be telling other people at this stage... watch this space I guess :)