小人再也不要见。。。

work-related update... had another meeting with our manager again that day and it was finally decided that Kate and I would swap starting Tuesday, which means I will return to MRT and Kate will go back to Cancercare... thank goodness, I was actually advocating for this to happen asap cos I could tell our manager was wanting to drag it out, don't think I could stand another day working with her... since I returned from leave, it was same old story again, and I could tell she really wanted Kate to go back as well, she was already supervising Kate even whilst she was in MRT... MRT can be frustrating as well, and I have not done rehab for quite a while now, so I am going to have to start recalling all the stuff again, and shower Ax again, but all I can think of now is to get out of cancercare asap... so the decision was made Wednesday, and I informed her that day, and knowing that I was off on Friday and Monday was my last day at cancercare, I wanted to thank everyone else, but she has yet to mention my leaving to anybody, so I just went up to the wards and informed them myself, and on thursday pm, she had yet to inform people, so when I sent out the email for morning tea on monday to everyone, she was like why did you send out the email to everyone, I thought the morning tea was only for upstairs... I was like, seriously not everything revolves around you, everyone else has been really helpful since I started at cancercare, so of course, I have to thank everyone, not only who you think I should inform... anyway, I did it whether she liked it or not... so after MOnday I will be free of her... thank god... no matter how tough MRT can be, it will never compare to the 8 months of hell working with her :( 

I am actually quite upset that Westmead did not get back to me... oh well...

贵宾拜访。。。

just would like to make a comment that since late last year, I have had some weird body stuff happen to me... like, my ear being blocked for 2 weeks with wax, which is probably my fault, for using expired earwax removal, then my foot grew warts, which really hurt for a few months, cost me a fortune going to podiatrist for treatment and the medications which I had to use... and then just on my NZ trip, I have no idea what happened, but I had a huge pimple growing in my pubic region, with really disgusting pus... just thinking about it made me want to throw up... I even had to resort to putting toilet paper in my panty becos the pus and blood were oozing nonstop... puke... and it was really painful to sit and walk... even when lying down it was painful... and then there are 2 lumps which has been there for quite awhile in my lower abdo region and on my pubic region, painless, and working in cancercare has got me worried to the point where I decided I had better make sure it's not anything sinister, so went to the GP, got a referral to do an ultrasound, did one on the abdo region, which turned out to be a hair follicle, not able to do the other one cos of the painful pimple growing there, which thankfully has now subsided... alamak...

anyway, 26 April 2013... arrival of VIPs... papa, ah ma, auntie and uncle... went to the airport to pick them up, and was informed that I will be in the car with 3 of them, whom I have not spoken to for God knows how long, and ah ma who speaks minimal English and chinese... it was pretty awkward... went to Eastwood for lunch, bad idea, it was as usual packed with asians even though it was a friday... after that, pongie went off with uncle and I drove them back home, unpacked, rested for awhile, showed them around our house, and made our way to auntie's place for dinner... the auntie decided to buy heaps of stuff wanting to cook at home and pongie and I immediately discouraged the idea... no frying of any sort allowed in our home... thank you.

27 April 2013: day trip to Bilpin, apple picking, not much to pick from though, and the nut farms have closed for the season already... the guests were very excited though... after that, went to Mt Tomah botanic garden cos there was a festival happening, but it was so packed that we were not allowed into the main gardens area... drove back down to nepean area, stopped by panthers for a drink... and did a drive by at work... had dinner at our korean hotpot place again at eastwood, and pongie had to catch a train there after her IELTS... night time was fairly interesting, cos there were 6 of us using one bathroom, ah ma and auntie slept in our room, and uncle and papa slept in the spare room, pongie and I slept in the hall on the floor... 

28 April 2013: had breakfast in our usual cafe at hornsby first then day trip to the city, opera house, and the rocks... and went to lindt... poor pongie had to catch the train into the city, but by the time she arrived, we were leaving, so she was quite upset understandably... and it was pretty hot that day too...went for dinner at takeru that night... on the way home... pongie happened to turn around, and saw auntie vomiting into a bag behind, it was soooo wrong... and she did not even alert anyone, even asked me to keep driving, so I pulled over at the petrol station, got down and made sure she did not have any projectile vomit into hyungie, and grabbed a whole lot of tissues... when we arrived back home in the carpark, she got out and before I even knew what she intended, she was already heading towards our neighbour boxes and vomiting in there, it was so wrong... even when I tried to explain to her that the boxes belonged to someone, she kept insisting that it was rubbish... I was thoroughly put off and disgusted by her 'china' behaviour... and until now I could still smell vomit in the garage... and I am so worried that our neighbour will come after me... :(

29 April 2013: last day of leave, had my job interview at parramatta, which went well I thought but have yet to hear back since then... papa and uncle went to bunnings at thornleigh and papa insisted that it was only a short distance back home from there, haha... he realised his mistake after... ah ma and auntie stayed at home that day... and they cooked something really smelly that night... came into the house and it stank... 

back to work... same old, usual stress working with her... luckily no further episodes of vomiting from auntie... papa and uncle helped with some home maintenance stuff, installed stuff, which I did not agree with, like the shelf for the printer, although it's still sitting here... cleaning the house... uncle always strikes me as a quiet person, but he's actually really funny and nice... ah ma is healthy and can eat despite her age... the only person I have an issue with was auntie... hated her 'china' behaviour, ie coughing and spitting into recycling bins... anyway, they came for a week and left the following week... papa stayed for another week, so we went back to our own rooms to sleep and papa slept in the spare room... was working on the sunday, watched Ironman 3 with prisy, auntie and uncle, really liked the movie, 8/10 for me... was so surprised to see auntie irene at macquarie when I turned around and there she was... so she met papa and started kaypohing as per usual... papa bought a juice extractor, and a steamer to iron my new scrubs, so annoying, never had to iron my uniform before, now the scrubs are so crumply after being washed... one week with papa came and went... papa went home today... so now the plan is papa and mum will be visiting in sept for pongie's graduation... nainai is not coming cos brian's getting married then... and prisy's off for 5 weeks to Europe...

NZ trip 2013

15 April 2013: started to make our way to the airport, detoured to westfield food court to have lunch first, then caught the train to the airport, I have to say even though I really like my blue handcarry luggage, it can be quite heavy especially if you have to carry it to walk long distances and up and down stairs... took us approx 90 mins to arrive at the airport, got there really early, and not many things to see at the airport anyway, so we pretty much were sitting and stoning at the waiting area for approx 4 hours... finally came the time to board approx 2000, the flight there was pretty alright, was quite tired, so slept for most of the journey, and luckily it was only a short 3 hours flight... finally landed in Christchurch, it was already midnight when we arrived, so could not really see much, but there were quite alot of people though despite the late hour... it was pretty hot in sydney that day, but it was much cooler when we arrived at Christchurch...

rang the free shuttle service to pick us up from the airport, we were waiting at the wrong spot, hence missed the shuttle, but found out that the accommodation which we were staying at, called Sudima Hotel was only like a 5 mins walk from the airport... by the time we checked in, both of us were exhausted, and lost our way around the place trying to look for our room, so when we finally actually arrived at our room, we have pretty much gone past the exhaustion phase... by the time we finally showered and unpack what we required, it was like 0200 in the morning, and we were being picked up the next morning at 0700, so not much sleep that night...

16 April 2013: picked up at the hotel by the shuttle whom brought us to the Christchurch train station, to catch the TranzAlpine train to Greymouth... approx 4 hours journey, scenery was pretty although apparently NZ has just had a major drought just before we arrived, so the riverbeds were dry, and we were informed that the scenery was more pretty in winter becos there would be snow capped mountain peaks...when we arrived at Greymouth, it was raining, so we had to walk across the road to the nearest food place which was Subway and grab a quick lunch cos our tour bus will be departing pretty soon, the annoying thing was we were right on time when we arrived at the tourbus, and that was becos we pretty much inhaled our subway sandwiches, the bus driver was like you guys are late, you almost missed the bus... in a rude way as well... anyway, the bus was quite packed when we departed, another 4 hours journey on the bus this time...

when we arrived at Franz Josef town, it was becoming dark, checked into our Bella Vista Motel... the motel room was not too bad, equipped with a small kitchenette, there is even a microwave and a towel heater, and a heated bathroom light... dropped off our stuff and went to await our shuttle to take us to the glacier...

when the shuttle came, we were the only ones on the shuttle, and was informed that becos it was becoming dark, we may not be able to do the walk to get a closer look of the glacier, which was apparently approx 1-2 hours walk, we were like no problem, we will take the shortest walk, which was approx 30mins one way... thought it would be quite easy until we were actually doing it and realised that it was pretty much an uphill climb... no wonder it was only 30mins! anyway, by the time we got up to the lookout, both of us were panting and struggling to catch our breath... took some pictures and came back down not long after... the shuttle lady was also telling us that the whole town depended on the visitors coming to see the glacier, which is gradually disappearing due to global warming, so say in the next 20 years, once there is no glacier, the people living in the town will not be able to survive... after returning back down, decided to look for a place to have dinner, and decided upon this little cottage cafe called Alice May, the food was actually quite nice and there was a complementary glass of wine as well... in fact the dinner that day was probably the best meal we had throughout our trip in NZ...

17 April 2013: picked up in the am by tourbus at approx 0730 headed to Queenstown, very long drive... few stops along the way, lunch on the way...approx 9 hours on the road... weather that day was beautiful... arrived into Queenstown finally, quaint little town and the good thing was everything was located in the town, and all are within walkable distances, alot of adventure sports shops... dropped off at our accommodation Bella Vista motel where we will be spending the next 3 nights at... this motel was not as good as the one at Franz Josef though... anyway, dropped off our stuff and went exploring the town... finally decided on this cafe called Chico's cos they had a dinner special... not very nice in the end... 

18 April 2013: free day at Queenstown... decided to go on this city tour on an old style London bus in the am... visited the lake, saw someone bungy jump, which was pretty cool even though it was not quite that high, visited Gibbston Valley winery and bought goat's cheese, visited Arrowtown, which was pretty cool as well, and there were this group of Chinese tourists on the bus as well, and for some reason, saw us and started speaking to us in Chinese, and of course, without thinking, responded back in Chinese, and had to translate some stuff for them along the way... after the bus tour, we walked around the town area again, found this cookie store, which sold freshly baked cookies, and it was yummy... ate like 3 cookies and then felt sick after... bought an Icebreaker thermal for myself... hot pink colour one... it does keep you warm especially when it was really cold at night in Queenstown... after that, went to catch the free cable car ride up a mountain, beautiful scenery, it was actually quite crowded once we arrived up there, people were queuing for the buffet dinner, paragliding and luge riding... wanted to wait for the sunset but later realised that the sun was behind the mountain, so made our way back down via cablecar, and when we arrived back on the ground, saw some people paragliding and landing close to our motel... decided to have Korean food that night as it was really cold, and we felt like eating rice... which for me is definitely strange, I never feel like eating rice usually... anyway, was quite disappointed with the food, was not as good, and we ended up having 2nd round of dinner at Mcdonalds, cos we saw the double fillet o fish burger... yummy! one thing I learnt was that NZ used to have millions of sheep, more sheep than humans, even now, but people are now moving more to dairy farming instead of high country sheep farming, due to the change in demand... and with high country sheep farming, the farmers used to have to climb up high in the mountains to locate the sheep, with the help of dogs, but now they use helicoptors...

19 April 2013: milford sound day trip, picked up early in the am at 0700, the bus was full, urgghh, this was the first time during the trip that the bus was fully packed... alot of Japanese tourists... made a few stopovers along the way, beautiful weather and scenery... approx 6 hours bus journey to milford sound... there were alot of tour buses heading the same direction, which meant alot of people everywhere we went... stopped over at this mirror lake which was really clear and it really does reflect the mountains and the skies, a stream with fresh mountain water, had a drink as well... finally arrived into milford sound ferry terminal... so many tourists... there was lunch included in the tour, but it turned out to be a cold meal and it was disgusting, did not eat any of it... the ferry ride was approx an hour return, which was probably for the best, as I was starting to feel seasick, the best part of the ferry ride was us being up close and personal with the waterfall, it was really amazing... the bus ride back to Queenstown was not as exciting, by the time we arrived back into town, it was quite late, and so we ended up eating cup noodles which we brought from home... 

20 April 2013: time to leave Queenstown and heading back towards Christchurch, picked up early in the am by the bus, and we were headed towards Mount Cook, approx 5 hours journey... not a good day at all, it was cloudy for most part of the am, and when we arrived at Mount Cook resort, it started to rain, so it was not very interesting at all... the only interesting thing we  saw was Lake Pukaki, which was a really nice blue-green colour lake, and you could actually see the colour reflected on the clouds... stopped by at the famous church of the good shephard for a photo stop... it was still raining then... and it was another 5 hours from Mount Cook into Christchurch... we were tired and hungry and cold by that time, at least the rain did stop... the motel was actually quite nice, the sad thing was we arrived late at night, and had to leave really early the next day, hence not able to really see the surroundings of the motel, cos it was medieval style... and the room was quite nice as well... anyway, dropped off our stuff and went in seach for food, walked like 20mins down the street and could not see any foodplaces, so in the end, turned back around and ate at this hotel next door to our motel, the food was not nice at all...

21 April 2013: picked up early in the am and taken back to Christchurch railway station but this time we are catching the Coastal Pacific train instead... 5 hours train ride to Picton... pouring with rain for most part of the journey, not much of a scenery even though we were so close to the pacific ocean and we did see some seals... arrived in Picton and it was still raining, walked to the ferry terminal and it was a 3 hours ferry ride across the Cook Strait to Wellington... the ferry ride started off ok, even though it was pretty crowded, then it started becoming very rocky once we hit open waters, and that was when I started feeling sick, so had to go outside onto the deck for some fresh air, even though it was raining, but there were inconsiderate people around who kept smoking... this part of the trip was not fun at all... finally arrived into Wellington, got picked up by the shuttle to Ibis hotel, the room was not bad, we were surprised that we got to stay in a hotel even though we chose the motel option for the tour... unpacked our stuff and decided to walk around the place and look for food, the city was boring and dead, pretty much, most of the shops were closed or closing, so in the end, found Burger King (that's right, not Hungry Jacks), and it was bad... the food was just wrong... 

22 April 2013: picked up by the shuttle and arrived at the bus terminal to wait for our bus heading to Rotorua... there were alot of Maoris and some really strange people on the bus... 8 hours bus ride... few stops along the way... I have to say, the scenery in the North Island is not very pretty at all... finally arrived into Rotorua, and our accommodation for the next 2 nights, at Novotel... the room was pretty good though... unloaded our stuff and decided to walk around, it was still drizzling... had pizza for dinner, not very nice though... finally had internet and computers to upload our pics and check our emails... the hotel was nice as well...

23 April 2013: picked up by the shuttle, and first destination was Te Puia... a thermal springs, mudpool and kiwi tourist attraction... this was probably the best attraction out of all the ones we went to in Rotorua... got to see the hotsprings up close and personal despite the smell... the second best attraction was the Agrodome, where we watched the sheep show, really enjoyed the show, it was funny and got to take pics with the sheeps up close... the next place we went to called Rainbow Springs was pretty boring, got to see some native trees, and the kiwi, but not allowed to take any pics as they are nocturnal creatures and sensitive to light... after our am tour, returned back the hotel, and we went in search for food... did some grocery shopping at the woolies equivalent but called countdown... bought manuka honey, was told that it has healing properties and that we were allowed to bring into sydney, so we bought 4 bottles... ended up eating cup noodles for lunch as we did not want to miss out on the hangi (maori traditional way of cooking their food) meal during the night tour. Picked up by the shuttle and it was full, to the Maori village of Mitai... was treated to a hangi meal where the food was cooked for hours in the ground, a Maori warrior sailing through the river, cannot see anything cos it was dark and the place was packed with people... a Maori performance, this was nice, the food was not very nice, and they did not inform us that there was only one serving each person... and after that, a walk through the forest with only torchlight in hand to see the glow-worms... 

24 April 2013: picked up the next am by the tourbus headed for Waitomo Caves to see the glow worms... approx 3 hours bus ride... the bus driver was especially chatty and there were only 3 of us in the whole bus... did not have any chance to sleep at all... and we were informed that we may not be able to bring the honey back with us through customs... which got us panicking the whole trip... so in the end, I came up with the idea to post the honey back to singapore just so they do not get confiscated at customs... so anyway, arrived at the caves, the weather was holding up pretty well... the tour through the caves was quite nice, and the boat ride was nice, got to see alot of glow worms, but not able to take any pics though... once we left the cave, it started to pour with rain all the way through our bus journey to Auckland, approx 3 hours... once we arrived in Auckland, it was still raining, so we had to carry our luggages through the rain in search for a post office...  and it cost me a bomb to send the honey back home... after that, we lost our way looking for the Auckland city hotel, and poor pongie had to carry both my and her luggage uphill... by the time we finally arrived at the hotel, we were both exhausted and sweating... it was really shitty as well to go from Novotel to our hotel in Auckland, cos it was quite crappy... so anyway, the rain eased and we decided to walk around the city and look for food again... went to the Auckland tower, and found this korean buffet place for $20 each, which was pretty good, but the food was not great... and by the time we finished, it started to pour with rain again... it was disgusting having to walk back to the hotel in my sandals, it was wet and yucky...

25 April 2013: had to wake up at 0300 in the am to be picked up to the airport for our flight back to Sydney... when we arrived at the airport, nothing was open so it was pretty much sit and wait... the flight back to Sydney was horrendous, the landing was so turbulent, the whole plane was shaking like crazy, and all sorts of images popped into my head, like the one in day after tomorrow, and my hands were so shakey after... this has to be one of the worst flights I have ever sat in... never use LAN airlines! arrived back into sydney, the weather was beautiful, caught the train back, and part of me was glad to be home but the other half of me wished I was still on hols... started unpacking, washing clothes, and cleaning, in preparation for VIPS arrival the next day... oh and my new uniforms arrived, and the pants and jacket are ugly... pants are clown style and jacket was biker style... so decided to exchange them for another style...

4 mOrE DAys...

sat down with Laura pscyh yesterday, and of course, talked about the events last week again, and seriously, I don't know what upsets me about that particular patient and situation... or maybe it's just the accumulation of having to work and tolerate her these past months... was feeling hurt that I was not invited to Kara's wedding actually, and it sounded like she invited kate and her of all people...obviously we are not as close as I thought we were... took another 'sickie' today, things are getting alittle too much at work actually, and I am now overdue for some time away... sooo looking forward to our trip, this is one of the rare times when I wish the weekend would go quickly... on the job seeking front, pretty bad, not many jobs out atm, which means I am probably going to be stuck for longer at Nepean... ohh... time to order new uniforms, and this time, it's all self measure, and ordering online, good and bad I guess, the colour is not the best, it's like the crescent skirt colour, but we get to wear scrubs which looked pretty comfortable... stay tuned...

started re-reading my in death series for maybe the millionth time, finished watching School 2013, it was actually pretty good, sad at times, but also with some funny scenes in between...pretty much finished packing for the trip, and realised that on the trip there, we cannot carry shampoo and stuff cos we only have carryon luggage, but we only realised that after we bought all the stuff... hey but at least it was better late than never...and get all the stuff confiscated at the airport... 

4 more days left...

I NEed to GEt OUt...

this week has been shitty, especially since wednesday...

wednesday morning, I attended the pall care CC instead of Dawn, and becos it went for 1.5hours, she was like what took you so long?? you should have left etc etc... and then started talking about one of the new referrals, and her not knowing the pt and the full story, said I want you to do a formal cognitive Ax, even though I said I did not think it was necessary... but she insisted that I do one regardless... initially I wanted to ignore her and do what I thought was appropriate, but it just so happened that something else came up and I thought maybe I should do a formal cognitive Ax as well, not becos she TOLD me to do it, but becos an issue regarding the pt's capacity to make decisions came up... 

and then on thurs, another dreaded lymph clinic day, but becos it was Kate, not as stressful, but in the pm, when I was doing MRT, the student and I spent quite alot of time with one of the patients and I think the both of us were becoming frustrated with the documentation of the session by the end of the day... 

then today, Dawn was like how many active pts do you have on your list? and I said 2-3, and she was like, you are not managing with your current caseload, and 2-3 pts are not alot, a normal caseload should be 10-11, you need to be prioritising your pts blah blah blah... anyway, spent quite a long time sorting out the d/c of the above pt today, and then seeing 2 other pts who also took quite awhile, and in the end, did not even have time for morning tea or lunch... and just before going home, she was like, was I ok?? what happened with the pt earlier, and why it took so long etc etc... and I pretty much told her that I did not appreciate her making me feel like I am not doing any work, becos I felt like I helped someone today, even though the outcome was not ideal and even though it took such a long time... and that I simply cannot understand her reasoning behind asking me to do the cognitive assessment which I did not think was necessary... I could have gone further, and said what I really want to say since I started in cancercare... which is... 

you are a person who says one thing and does the other, who refuses to work with someone becos you are not able to get along with them, and expects people around to also not work with them, someone whom I lost all respect for since the day you threw a tantrum and stomped out of a meeting becos nobody read the document that you circulated, and the day when you actually had to take "stress leave" becos you had a disagreement with another staff member... you make it really difficult to work with you, becos I feel like I have to watch everything I say and do... and to work with the other staff members, when they are one of the essential members of the team... and you disliked it everytime you found out that I spoke to the staff member about pts... even though you would be ok and even encouraged me to speak to the other care coordinators about pts... you always said I need to work on my verbal communication, and I need to tell you everything, but you are the one who asked me to see the pts on the ward becos you are busy with other stuff, and I did and then you decide that you have some time, and so you go see the pts without telling me...

dunno how long more I can tolerate this situation... I NEED TO GET OUT! kate is more than welcome to have my position anytime!

倒数两个星期。。。

damn, coming onto 3 weeks now, and not a single word from my job application... pretty much gave up on the job already, wish they would actually at least send out an email informing people that they did not get the position, rather than leave people like me hanging...

easter long weekend... started off on friday am with a nightmare... multiple long trails of ants in the kitchen, all the way up to the ceiling, and in the bathroom and room... it was disgusting... spent the whole morning cleaning, and spraying, and drenched the whole kitchen in vinegar... so far, the ants are staying away, bought 'extra' protection when we go away in 2 weeks' time... 

after the whole morning spent cleaning, went to auntie's place, and hung out with prisy... watched running man, played this new monopoly card game with xtine and marga... it was actually quite fun, required thinking, strategy... 

sat... went for a walk, and found a nice park close by, which I was very excited about, not warming up before climbing the stairs was a mistake, as our legs were killing us especially going down steps... went to watch Oz the movie, it was ok, the graphics were good, other than that, storyline not as good as wicked the musical we went to... went out into the city, the usual, but it was actually quite crowded... ate lindt, korean food, not sure why, but they no longer sell the spicy chicken on a hotplate I ordered the last time... and the dishes no longed come with rice, unless it specifically says with rice... karaoke, and we had to pay $15 each cos it was a public holiday... 

sun... working during the day, kept telling myself to think abt the money, but it was actually not too bad that day... went for dinner at eastwood korean place with xtine and marga... marga recommended jonga jip, it was packed at the store, and we were then told to go to the other branch nearby, walked in and it was sooo smokey... the vents were obviously not working at all, luckily, we got to sit upstairs... anyway, the food was still not as good as the usual korean hotpot place we go to...

monday... got up early, excited that this was our first easter egg hunt in 2 years, even got to the shops really early, and ended up with only a handful of eggs... so disappointing! strategy next year would be to start our hunt even earlier! did our grocery shop, cleaning for the week, washing for the week, cooked both meals, pongie decided to try grilling some chicken wings, I think I may have took the chicken out a little too early, cos it was still a little bloody inside... :( 

and it's back to work today... nothing very exciting... counting down to the nz trip!

EASter Egg HUNt is On THis YEar...

flyscreens front... got two quotes over the weekend, still hesitant if we should do it, just cos I am thinking abt the mess and the cleanup we have to do after... 

work wise... informed Dawn I have started applying for jobs, but seriously jobs are not many and it's looking even more like I am going back to rehab in Oct... which hopefully is not the case...

I am still sucking at lymphoedema, wish I could not do it, don't think it's my cup of tea after all... spoke to ren about the differences in measuring issue, and he was really good about it, and appeared to want to help, but there's not much to be done, as I simply want to keep status quo, and not rock the boat too much, cos it has taken me a long time to get to where I am now at cancercare...and actually grateful to ren that he swapped easter sunday shift with me, which means that I get paid double time and a half... yay...

otherwise, nainai and auntie went back to singapore on sat, not too upset this time, cos I am hopeful that if everything goes alright, she will be returning in summer again... wish I could go back, but can't think of a good time for pongie and I... 

sat was such a mentally and physically tiring day, have not been so exhausted for a long time... woke up at 0500 to send nainai off at the airport, came home, had breakfast and started getting ready for the church wedding... was late cos parking was absolutely horrendous, and had to walk a long distance in heels, which needless to say, made the start of the day already worse... and it was quote hot and stifling in the church, and alot of singing, and praying, really felt like nodding off throughout... Karen looked nice in the wedding gown, liked the bottom part of the gown, the top part not really... theme was white and purple, and pretty much mostly asians/HK... after church, there was some finger food on the lawns, came back home soon after... the day was sooo hot... had a quick nap which really helped otherwise don't think I can cope with the dinner in the evening... soon, it was time to head into the city for the dinner, and this time we were actually early, sat around, and dinner did not start until approx 1900... and all the guests were pretty much from her church, and family, I think... dinner was dragged out cos there were talking and playing games after every meal... personally, I did not enjoy dinner at all, but it had to be very expensive, there were lobster and abalone... dinner ended at approx 2200, and we still were the first few ones to leave then, by the time we arrived home, both of us were exhausted mentally and physically, and the bottom of my right foot was starting to get a blister... sooo glad that the next day was a sunday, and we went to do our weekly grocery shop and cleaning...

yesterday, there was a big family gathering at our place back home, got to meet new members of the family via skype, brian's and pearlyn's partners, seriously, everyone seems to be meeting their prospective partners in church, curious to know what actually goes on during church...

3 more days until easter long weekend, and 3 more weeks until NZ... wish time would pass quickly now...

MArch iNG ALonG...

went to the Smith and Nephew measuring course yesterday, and it was helpful, felt more confident with measuring, and also met some of the coursemates there as well, as well as Andrea from Mt Wilga, it was actually good to see them again, cos we all had the same 'trauma' of going through the course... and reminiscing... 

thursday, the last day before you know who leaves, went to the farewell lunch and there was so much food there, I was like, I can't believe I was fretting about baking and buying a nice cake and everything, cos it would just go to waste in the end... the last day actually turned out to be quite uneventful, after all that... but what's new... 

still have not mentioned the fact that I am looking for jobs to dawn, but will have to next week, and Kate told us that day, that there is no funding for MRT in June, which means if I am still at Nepean in Oct, I won't be going back to MRT, and nobody knows what is going to happen then, what will happen to Kara, Frances, Kate, and they are not replacing the PT position... it's abit worrying... and Karen has left for a 6 months leave... 

started to actively organise for flyscreens to be installed again, but not many companies are interested it seems... but we'll see what we get quoted...

因祸得福。。。

just thought I would post again...

on the warts front, yes!!!! after nearly 4 months of battle with the stupid virus infection, and severe pain in my foot, I can say that both warts seemed to be healing, so I am just being very careful now to make sure that this never happens again, even if it means never using a public swimming pool, or an indoor one like downstairs again... 

yesterday was a drama at work really... think it was becos I ate all of the brownies, when I came home from work on sunday, and had 3 epsiodes of diarrhoea overnight, then took some Norit, and it seemed to have improved so I went to work as usual on monday... got to work, just having my usual small talk with dawn and glyndon about our weekends, and opened my big mouth about me having diarrhoea, and the next thing I know, I was being sent home, cos apparently you need to have 24 hour symptom free before you can go to work... so in the end, I drove all the way to work and an hour later, drove all the way home again... annoying... anyway, decided to spend some time with nainai, so we went to eastwood and macquarie for lunch, and today decided to have another sick day off today... :)

and job application wise, submitted my application for the TACP position yesterday... just hoping that work will be supportive, and I am successful for the position...

finally paid for our NZ trip on the weekend, counting down the days before we go on our trip!

DamN puBLic PooLs...

seemed to have neglected to blog my warts issue... started out as a blister I think on my left foot, and for some reason, it worsened and eventually became a wart!!! it became so painful that it hurts with every step I took, and this was approx 3 months ago... so in the end, went to the GP, who could not really help me, and no choice but to go see a podiatry, and becos I am not covered under my private health insurance, I have to pay it straight out of my pocket... that's when they informed me that the first one was a wart but they were unsure whether the second one was a wart or something else, cos there was a hole in the second one... the podiatrist told me that the most likely place which I could have gotten the wart was from the swimming pool, which made me realise that it was probably due to me refusing to wear slippers into the swimming pool area, and walking around barefoot... so 3 months later, 3 visits to the podiatrist later, cryotherapy later, and daily soaking, application of medication later, the second one has healed, but the first one is still black... but at least since my treatment has completed, the pain has resolved... so the bottom line for me from this lesson learnt is... never ever use the swimming pool again!!!

and my cluedo game finally arrived, yay!

so, work wise, had a meeting with kate and deb that day, and they were talking about dropping out of the rotation program and each of them considering staying in an area they preferred, kate chose cancercare, no surprise there, and deb seemed to lean towards aged care/rehab... and I voiced my hesitation about feeling bad if I were to leave now, but they pretty much said don't worry about it, nobody will care or be upset... and just that same night, looked on the jobs website, and saw an ad for a TACP position at westmead... so I am in the process of applying for it, and now the issue is letting people at work know and getting my referees, which is always awkward for some reason... really hope that people at work would be supportive, and I will get the position, fingers and toes crossed...

再也不要见。。。

today realised and found out that I am indeed surrounded by a few gays and lesbians at work... and a shocking discovery about you know who... crap, urggghhh... wasted all this time worrying about nothing in the end... and obsessing...and the countdown starts... time to put all these behind me and move on...

first day back at work after the course, and of course, the first question to me was how was the course?? no choice but to talk about the mental and physical stress, and become embarrassed in the process... oh well... at least there were few people who went through the same thing and could sympathise... now the next challenge is to actually see some real clients in the clinic starting april...

7 Days of LymPHoeDeMA BOoTCAmp...

finally survived lymphoedema bootcamp! it has been a very tough week, and alot of sweat and late nights, and even though I passed, cos they have to pass us, dunno if I actually am competent in both theory and practical, and even the tutor said she was worried that I may not pass... I have to say the things that really helped were having really patient tutors, and I have been very lucky in that my partners every session have been very helpful and I have learnt alot from them... I still would not say that I am confident seeing patients on my own immediately... and one of the shitty things was that my period had to come on sunday, which meant that I have to inform the tutors and my partners, which was pretty embarrassing even though all of us were females... 

anyway, despite having a really tough week (ie full on days, homework and practice at night, late nights studying, having to strip off pretty much every day, alot of sweat involved during bandaging), I am glad that I did the course, cos I did learn new things from it, and increased my skills and knowledge and got me thinking about possibly working in burns if the opportunity arises in future... although noted that there are only 2 hospitals in nsw that have burns unit, concord and royal north shore... 

and I am soo glad that I have the day off tomorrow, cos I don't think I have the energy to return to work immediately... and made a new friend from the course as well...

FReAkiNG oUT HEre...

Lymphoedema course has finally come round, after months of anticipation and dread...

day 1- was walking to the rsl and was waiting at the traffic lights when I turned round and saw someone I knew from uni... it was really weird, could not recall his name, apparently he is working casual at Mt Wilga private hospital now... first day and I already had to strip off my pants and lie down... and my partner happened to be a girl who works with a colleague who I used to work with and who is dawn's good friend... small world, anyway, she was my partner and I was surprised when it was measuring limb time, and everyone started stripping off their pants just like that... it appeared to be that I am the only one who is embarrassed about this whole situation... the course is full-on... felt like they are cramming alot of stuff into the day and even break times are reduced...

day 2- even better, the day when it was time to strip off down to your panty, and even then, you have to massage near the genital area... my partner today happened to be a PT and an older lady, which probably helped I think... I was trying my hardest NOT to freak out and not to laugh during the massage due to it being ticklish at some parts... another full on day, have a headache by the time they went through the massage techniques... and we still have homework to do at night... signed up for the free measuring course which I am really glad to go to bcos they pretty much rushed through the whole measuring section today... and I am also attending a short workshop on use of low level laser but on a sunday... at least work is also paying for it... gosh I keep thinking what the hell have I gotten myself into???!!!! maybe I do need to go see a psych after this :(

CLouDy & rAiNinG...

恭喜发财！！！！

missed out on another year of chinese new year and hongbaos... the good thing is nainai is here this year, and that we got to skype with the relatives as well on the weekend and had a sumptious dinner on sat...

work wise...maybe my prayers are starting to come true, bcos her attitude seems to be improving towards me, and she is also starting to defend me, but I just can't seem to drop my guard though, especially when I think about the past few months... anyway, when I was looking through the predictions for this year, apparently, this is only an ok year for me, and the main thing is to stay positive... one more week until the dreaded lymphoedema course, I just hope that things will turn out ok... 

nothing very much going on atm, still looking forward to april when we finally go on a holiday, feels like such a long time since my last holiday, which was last april... still considering whether I should go back home this year...

无底洞。。。

australia day long weekend... nainai came up for the weekend, and it was pretty much raining the whole weekend... started working on sundays now, once a month, it's actually not too bad, the ward is quiet, and I can pretty much go about doing my work without people in the way, or files not found... and once/month is just nice, although I found out that I get taxed a lot more...

sat... went grocery shopping at eastwood and at hornsby... nothing very exciting...

sun... working

mon... went out for breakfast, and nainai and I went to watch the Hobbit, it was pretty boring, almost fell asleep a few times during the movie, when we came out of the theatre, it was packed with kids, and everywhere was full of people, cos it was pouring rain outside... and it pretty much rained throughout the night as well... rewatched it started with a kiss 1 and 2... and managed to finish the 3 kingdoms, it was boring... yep that was how bored I was, no new nice shows atm, except running man once a week...

tues... went out for lunch, dropped pongie off at uni, then took nainai to epping library, and it started to rain again... then went to castle towers to eat baskin and robbins...

work has been alright, still dreading every day I have to work with her... and the shitty thing is, bcos of this course, I cannot quit now, and there are no jobs available, and there are alot of people around me also looking for jobs atm, my situation is gettting more depressing each day... at this rate, come Oct, I might find myself rotating back into MRT...  urgghh... 

and... amelia, karen, jo uni, mellishia, and siti are all getting married, and yochi's giving birth anytime soon... whilst here I am, getting old every day, and stuck in that place with that person... and you know who is leaving in March... all these time spent on Thursdays did nothing at all...

NEw BeGinniNgs HopEFully...

29 Dec 2012- spent the day in the city, usual routine, Lindt, karaoke, found a few new korean and jap places that look quite nice, but we were too full and my tummy was not feeling well due to the spoilt milk I drank in the morning...

30 Dec 2012- spent the day cleaning, watch some old shows, then went to auntie's place for dinner, and nainai came up to stay for the next few days...

31 Dec 2012- new year's eve, took nainai for lunch at ribs and rumps at olympic park, the place was actually quite big, and there was not many people, probably bcos it was the hols and lunch... and then went grocery shopping after... stayed up to watch the fireworks, but it was pretty much the same every year, boring...

1 Jan 2013- stayed at home the whole day until time to go to dinner's at auntie's place for pizza... was watching all the korean drama awards actually... not that I understood what was said, cos nobody subs the shows... 

2 Jan 2012- back to work :( today was asked by El was I missing Dawn, wanted to lie but it was not easy, in the end just hesitated and said no comment... will have to see if this is going to come back and bite me... really dreading next week, when she returns...

looking forward to the days when she is not there, and most importantly my NZ trip and the day when I can get out of this hellhole... and have made my new year resolutions, although the ones from last year were not achieved, sometimes I wonder why I even bother...

MErry XmAS...

recap of Xmas break...

21 Dec 2012- last day of work before a 5 day break, good thing was it was not very busy, and I got to leave work early, the downside was having to face her becos she decided to come into work, though God knows why cos she did not do any productive thing at all other than dictating what I should be doing to get rid of all the patients on my list...

22 Dec 2012- roadtrip, 1st stop was Saddleback Mountain lookout, luckily the weather cleared up when we arrived, cos it was drizzling on the way there, then we went to Berry, had lunch there, and the sun came out, and along came the flies, which meant that the lunch was not very pleasant, and the town was pretty crowded, which also meant that the toilets were disgusting... then we went onto Kangaroo Valley, which was really boring, cos most of the shops were closed... so it was pretty much in and out... then we decided to stop by Fitzroy falls... which was really disappointing, cos there was not much water, which Uncle did warn me before... then we decided to make our way back and decided to have dinner at Chatswood at Takeru... for some unknown reason and probably not thinking properly, I decided to order this ramen that has 2 chilli symbols, and it turned out to be really spicy, and it did not help that it was hot outside and inside the restaurant cos their air conditioning was broken, so in the end, I was eating and sweating at the same time, nice! my mouth was numb after... 

23 Dec 2012- went to cut my hair at Eastwood, and to my surprise, it was really quiet on the korean side, and wanted to check out the new korean restaurant, and it turned out to be BBQ, but it was closed anyway... 

24 Dec 2012- went to send Hyungie in for service, then took a train to Chatswood hoping that this time we could finally get pongie's licence done, but due to their pain in the ass rules, her name on the bank statement needs to match the name on her passport which it didn't and so RTA refused to issue her licence, I was really pissed, and it did not help that it was boiling hot that day, and crowded... so we went to the bank to change the order of her name and went to eat at Oliver Brown to cool myself down... came back to pick the car up and went to do some grocery shopping in the evening, did not have stuff on special though... 

Xmas day... cloudy and raining pretty much all day, which we were prepared for, so it was movie marathon day at auntie's... started with running man, then brave, resident evil, and bourne legacy... 

Boxing day... did not do very much studying the whole weekend, so did some in the morning, then it was time to make our way to the gathering at Magu's place, as usual, have to make small talk, eat and use the excuse of nainai to leave early, and ended up playing mahjong at auntie's place anyway...

27 Dec 2012- back to work, and everyone kept telling me how quiet it usually is on the 2 days but it turned out to be fairly busy... thought I would get some time to study, but nope, though I did leave early on both days... then had to go for dinner at Steve Adkinson's place, was not planning to go initially, but uncle said he wanted us to go, so again have to make small talk, eat food I don't like, except for the starters and dessert...

太累了。。。

another day of drama on wed... she became upset when the pall care team and her were disagreeing about hospital beds for a patient, and at one point I really thought she was going to cry or something, and then she decided she had to take a day off today otherwise she would not be able to continue, and she kept saying she can no longer stay in this position, and wants to go back to the main dept... and people could tell she was stressed, cos Willie came up to me and asked if she was stressed and was she taking a day off as stress leave, but Willie was really nice as she was asking whether I was ok... and Deanne gave me a pat on the shoulder and said I was doing well... which was really nice of her, although I know that Deanne and her are at odds... so in the end, she took today off, missed the dept xmas lunch and kris kringle... and possibly tomorrow as well... was seriously considering taking a sick day off tomorrow, but had to go to work in the end bcos of a pt, and the fact that there was no allied health tomorrow at all if I don't turn up as well... 

speaking of secret santa, got a decorative candle thing from cancercare and a handbag from the dept... which are both going into the regift box... 

one more day to go, I am so tired, this week has been a killer really... both physically and emotionally... and also found out that the person is leaving in march to london to work for a year...

HOW LonG moRe CAn I dO thiS?

had another shitty day at work again, was asked to do a learning styles questionnaire, and I did not score one point in the activist column, needless to say, she and I are going to be in for a really FUN time next year... my main problems continues to be not showing empathy, and not engaging with people at work, building rapport by making small talk, and the b**** made me say out loud that I suck at making small talk... and she even suggested that I speak to Kate about the fact that she got along so well with people at cancercare... and today, she quarreled with Jacqui right in the office, where everyone can hear, and it was pretty awkward throughout the day, but by the end of the day, they were back to speaking terms again... just like that other day, when she threw a tantrum and walked out of the meeting...seriously, how can you possibly expect people to respect you when you act like this??!! and I mentioned to her that I use a different OT model, and she was like, well, you need to tell me these things, and what happens when you start in a new job and I am the boss and I realise that you are doing something different from other people, and of course, any answer I gave was wrong, cos everyone has to do things her way... I hate her, truly do, and she even implied that if I don't like working in this area, there is no point doing the lymphoedema course, WTF, I have to keep telling myself to tolerate these shit until I become at least competent in lymphoedema, and then AU REVOIR! thanks but no thanks... you are the worst bully I have ever come across!

anyway, bcos of all these stress, I have now got this massive pimple between my nose and mouth, and it's huge, and painful the whole of today, and I had to walk around with that at work, and people that I did not want to see, of course, I see them... tried to squeeze it earlier, although we were told not to... it came out in a squirt at the mirror, it was way gross and now it's all red and painful, and still it's not clean...

10 DAys to XmAS...

realised that since this month started, all my posts are about the annoying person... she continues to irritate me nevertheless, however, I am NOT going to write another post about her... 1 more week before the xmas break, everybody seems to be already in the xmas spirit already and people seem to be more relaxed, personally, I am looking forward to this break, not bcos we are doing anything exciting during xmas, but becos of the days that I don't have to face her... work has been very quiet, I actually had no patients one day, and like 1 patient at the end of the week, so I actually had time to do my study... have finally decided to work on sundays, will have to see how it goes next year, cos I dunno if it is worth me travelling that far to work for 6 hours...

went to barefoot bowls this afternoon at parramatta rsl, quite a decent turnout, it was alright, I really just wanted to play it and see what the hype is all about, but don't think it's a game you could be playing for long hours on end... our team lost though... did not go for dinner though, not up to socialising, and heard that the food is not great either, and when I left, it was already starting to rain... 

other than that, nothing really exciting at the stage, no new dramas, so watching some old ones, and running man is ongoing...

16 days To XmaS...

almost a month since I last posted, and nothing has much improved from being irritated and frustrated and not being able to tell anyone else at work... everything I do seems to be the wrong thing, and now she is saying that I am doing things which she said not to do, even though when we talked about it, she said it was ok to do it that way... no wonder Kate made a comment previously about not knowing when to take her seriously or not when she says things... and she kept saying things like clinical reasoning, and that she has been doing things for a long time now and I have only been there for 2 months, and during the assessments, when she was meant to be observing me, she decides to step in and after asking a few questions, she just throws equipment at people, despite telling me that we cannot solve everything with just equipment... and when I started asking about continence, she was like why are you asking about that?? dunno how much more I can tolerate this shit, it's really difficult to respect and acknowledge something or someone when you don't agree with them or their methods... it's like so what if you have been doing this for a long time, it does not mean that you are doing things right...at this point in time, my strategy is to tolerate things until after I am competent in lymphoedema, and then I am off, thanks but no thanks... it was just really ironic that we also had our workplace culture training that day and talking about bullying... putting on a fake smile and pretending that I am actually enjoying my work is so tiring...

other than work being irritating, nothing much really happening, no new dramas at this stage, should be studying my lymphoedema stuff but have been putting it off... looking forward to this xmas break and really any other time that I don't have to face her...

忍气吞声...

I am going to use this post to rant... 

day before, Dawn happened to see the handover templates that I have been using since I started MRT, and made a big fuss over why I am keeping confidential stuff, should not be taking pts' confidential info around in my folder or leaving it around, which seriously, everyone in the office does that, like everyone has pts' files on their tables anyway, which is annoyingly ridiculous, and me having to justify why I am doing it, and the fact that she does not have to abide by the dept's policy around the clinical handover and having to do audits every month, means that I can't be writing down pts' confidential info and carrying it around and keeping it... it sounded so ridiculous and inefficient, bcos she actually suggested that if I were to need some pt's info on the file, I should just refer back to the file, which obviously she has not done alot of handovers before, bcos the pts and their files move with them, so unless you are willing to go tracking them down to find their files, which again sounded so stupid, just the fact that she actually said that and the fact that I had to justify the use of the templates made me so mad that day... I seriously thought of leaving the place that day... and had to keep reminding myself to think of the big picture and my own future... and at least stay there till I am confident in my lymphoedema skills first before leaving... 

and then today, she had to present on our roles in cancercare to a group of community OTs, and she made a comment which really annoyed me again... she was talking about mindfulness, and how I did not take the sultana during Kate and her presentation a while ago, and by some miracle, and those were her words, I actually managed to sneak into cancercare... which further cemented the fact that she was the one who strongly opposed me going to cancercare in the first place and went to say this to the manager, whom of course, in turn mentioned it to Karen, which on hindsight, I probably should not have mentioned this back to Dawn during supervision that day... and it is so obvious that she strongly wants Kate there, not me and that she has previously said to me that she worked better with Kate... 

all I can say and do is patience and breathe Andrea think of the big picture and your career... just endure until mid next year hopefully, when I finished the lymphoedema training and had some experience actually treating pts with lymphoedema then it's anneong!!!! unfortunately until that happens, I will just have to 忍气吞声... and with her, the other issue is that you never know whether she is kidding or being serious, which Kate did mention before... and from the way Kate was talking about her and cancercare previously, it really did sound like she had a difficult time with Dawn too, but obviously not, cos the 2 of them appeared to be pretty close, from what I can see... 

the other relatively good news is that I finally received my registration, with no conditions YAY! big sigh of relief... and I don't have to pay the additional renewal fee... thank goodness this one stress is over, after 8 months...

I have also booked our flights to NZ in April 2013, and we will be joining a tour for 9 days both north and south islands... only pong and I are going this time... looking forward to this, dunno if I will have the opportunity to go back home next year, if I am going to start looking  for a new job...

URggHhh... HOT...

coming up to a month after rotating into cancercare, things are still going ok, I guess, still trying to get used to having someone monitoring me closely and having to work so closely with another OT, still trying to get used to the wards and the people, and now that the end of the year is coming up, there's all these Xmas parties and gatherings happening, which to be honest I am not that keen on going... 

been catching up on my dramas, finished watching I need romance 1 and 2, did not think they were as good as the reviews said they were, pretty much forwarding through most parts, moved onto Reply 1997, slightly better, the leads are quite funny, and then watched Iljimae returns, omg, what a waste of time... it was super boring, and I did not even get what the plot was trying to do, and the lead character really did not appeal to me... next up was arang and the magistrate, some parts were not bad, but overall did not think it was as good as gumiho... just finished watching Faith, another show which I had quite high hopes of but ended up being melodramatic and slow... and the fact that the lead female character is so much older than Lee Minho... and I did not really get the story... which brings me to an end of my shows, not that I have finished all of my shows and no new shows at this stage... so probably will be rewatching some shows in the meantime... 

still waiting to get my flyscreens fixed, still nil response from them yet... so irritating... which goes to show that even if you are a paying customer, having money is not everything...

received my new phone today, a Samsung Galaxy Ace, yes a touchphone... features wise, of course it's better than my old phone, but still prefer to use my sony ericsson, but it's now a fact that I can only speak and hear through the speakers, can no longer hold it to my ear to listen and speak...

thinking of going to new zealand next April for a holiday, did some research today and realised that it's definitely not cheap at all, and we are only going for 12 days... but April seems to be the only time we are all available to go on a trip, and if I were to start looking for a job mid next year, I may not be able to have a holiday for a while... My plans for Europe 2013 is getting further and further away from me...

Wet ANd CoLd...

today is the first Thursday when Kate and I had to swap, was feeling worried already the night before, not knowing what to do, and have already forgotten some of the stuff I used to do in MRT, and working with the PT...

so this am, Kate was late, we were doing handover for almost an hour, which of course, did not sit well with Dawn, and then got a p/c from Ren saying Kara is on sick leave, and asking why I have yet to turn up... which also meant that I will be working with the PT mainly, which was definitely one of the things I was worried about... so after handover, headed over to the office, everything felt the same but also different at the same time, went to see this pt first, to do some UL stuff and apply the FES, had to revise my notes on FES and speak to people, cos I really forgot how to do these after not having done this for so long... and then of course, decided to page the PT to see where he was up to, met up with him, and began the first time we worked together, I personally felt really awkward, don't really know what to say, I really do suck at making small talk... anyway, the day went on, and I pretty much did not know what I was doing most of the day... I was pretty much either doing UL stuff or helping out the PT... after having done one day of MRT, and being physically exhausted, I was reminded of why I don't think I could do this again, the pts are heavy and I have gone for so long without having to do all these heavy transfers... and also, forgetting where wards are, and how things work, all contributed to me feeling really out of place today, and just the feeling of not knowing what to do, which sucked... the PT must be thinking 'what is she doing?!!!'

I really don't think this swap on Thursdays work well, but it's really not up to me at this stage, and it's not easy for Kate either... well I am off the hook for the next 2 weeks whilst Kate is away, so we'll see what happens... over at cancer care, still trying to get used to the different environment, people and how things work there, which is quite different from how it is back in the office... Dawn is quite supportive, but I sometimes do get the feeling of being a new grad or a student all over again, which is ok with me atm cos I am still learning every day... dunno about the lymphoedema part though, Dawn was telling me how we don't really get to wear gloves during bandaging and measuring for garments, and there may be pts coming in with really bad lymphoedema that it oozes out, and there's a smell and having to touch pt's private areas sometimes as well... my first thought was OMG what have I gotten myself into??!!!

再见年老部门， 欢迎癌症部门。。。

after one year and a bit in aged care, I am ready to move on, my last week did not go as well as I would have liked, received some pretty 'scorching' feedback from Collette just like last week, and on hindsight again, I did not think I did the wrong thing... anyway, just want to put the bad stuff away and move on... I was abit sad that I am leaving a pretty good multidisciplinary team in aged care, and I hate to say this but I think the daily MAU meetings have grown on me, it's now more like a social gathering at times... I am going to miss it... had my farewell lunch in 1F on Thurs, brought ice cream, and on Fri, it was my combined farewell lunch on MAU, was initially planning to buy the creme brulee cake at Pattisons, and for some reason, I thought the large cake was about $30, but it turned out to be a whopping $42, heart pain... now I have to buy another something for my first day in cancer care... I am really hoping that this last rotation turns out ok... felt pretty foreign when I had to pack my stuff and leave the office, on the good side, it is that I get to have my own computer and windows, and the table is much bigger, but the other hand, I have been in that office for the last 2 years, but it was good to know that I will be missed by some... even though I am still in the hospital but not physically in the office...

we have survived the first week at our new place, have yet to be doing alot of cooking, the first real cooking we did was rice, chicken and veges... other than that, the next few days were noodles, toast, and going to Auntie's place to eat laksa yesterday... our lounge set is finally arriving today, I am looking forward to it though, although the dining table chairs are pretty comfy, but it is not really ideal for sitting back and relaxing... the only thing remaining to do really is get rid of the awful odour coming from the laundry drains, and the door locks... solved the trapping of hair issue yesterday... realised that our sink and draining area is far too small for our needs if we are to be doing any serious cooking, which we did that day, so pretty much we were washing and drying at the same time...

thought I would be able to catch up on my dramas now that we moved out in the evenings, but that has yet to happen, by the time I arrived home, it was already like 1830, and by the time we cook and eat and clean, 1930, and shower 0800, and I am already pretty tired by then, managed to rewatch the avengers again, pity we could not burn it to keep, watched some running man, that was it...

Ah Neong...

we have finally moved in! 30 Sept is the day, could not sleep the first night, dunno whether if it's becos of the pillow or different bed... slowly getting used to it... nainai slept over, and we went for breakfast at the usual place, followed by another massive grocery shop again (never want to repeat the experience at Eastwood on a Sat am again for grocery shopping)... and then back to the unit and then to auntie's place for steamboat... woke up this am with a shock, cos the sky seemed to be bright already, my first thought was oh shit I am so late for work, quickly came out to check the time, and it was only 5:45am... left the house at 0630 and got to work at 0740... I can see my kms slowly increasing every day... worked out that the distance from home to work is now 54km... tonight is the first night that we are cooking, realised that the sink is too small for our needs, so we actually have to wash and dry stuff as we go... stuck the clingwrap wrongly, don't have anywhere to hang our clothing to dry indoors, cos I am worried that there may be bird shit on our clothes, so tried to use the dryer, but it was totally useless... so in the end, no choice, we hung the clothes outside hopefully the birds will keep their shit to themselves and no weird things dropping on the clothes...